Life... With Purpose

"Yes, and I will rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and the help of the Spirit of Jesus Christ this will turn out for my deliverance, as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death.  For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.  If I am to live in the flesh, that means fruitful labor for me.  Yet which I choose I cannot tell.  I am hard pressed between the two.  My desire is to depart and be with Christ, for that is far better.  But to remain in the flesh is more necessary on your account."

~Philippians 1:18c-24

On Friday, September 17, 2010, I read these words during my morning devotions.  This passage is so familiar to me, as I am sure it is familiar to so many of you, but it never struck me before as it did that morning.  I spent much of my day chewing on it, pondering its implications for my life.  More specifically, I thought about how God is keeping me here for a specific purpose.  The same is true for all of us.  The lives we live have a great purpose - a purpose determined by God.  That purpose involves affecting others.  Paul understood this, stating in verse 24 that he remained alive because the Philippians had something still to learn from him.  God was not yet done with him.

As I spent the day meditating on these words, I had no idea that God would use them to comfort me and grow me in the days that would follow.

On Saturday, September 18, 2010, my family was forever changed.  That was the day that Mike died.  We were immediately faced with the questions that so many in similar circumstances have faced.  Questions of "Why?  Why would God take Mike from us?  What good could possibly come of this?"  This event has helped me understand the anger that others express at God when something bad happens - I felt it.  It helped me understand the pain of loosing a piece of your heart - I can feel the hole.

I'm not ready to "get over it" yet.  And I may never be.

But, I am beginning to understand, I think (maybe).

Everything we do affects those around us.  We do not live in isolation, no matter how hard we try.  We live in community - that's how we were designed.  The purpose we have been given, then, is to play a role in the lives of those around us.  As a Christian, I believe this to mean that I am called to share the love of Christ with the people around me.  We may not know exactly who we are supposed to affect, but that doesn't necessarily matter.  What matters is that we live well, for the lives we have are not our own.

Mike lived well.  And we are now getting a glimpse at the impact he had on those around him.

For those who continue, I pray that God will guide us to live in a way that glorifies Him and shows His love to the nations.  And I praise God that when my time is finished - when my purpose is complete - I can spend the rest of eternity with Him.